Need to go shopping today
I hate going shopping now, absolutely hate it, no longer like the experience of getting up and out then going to store where evaluated by 'low standard people', who think you're just in store to create mischief.
At my age you just get tired of it, and at my age the 'lust factor' is no longer there, in other words you're not excited that you might meet someone special at the store anymore, instead there's just other people moping around like you are, there cause they have to be, and not cause they want to be.
Signed up for Public home delivery a few years ago, but never once used the service.
Walmart is the worst place to go, especially if you're a single minority male in that everyone is hardwired to believe you're only purpose in life is to go into 'their' store and steal something, anything, even a candy bar, and so they watch you like a hawk.
Even give those vague 'Security Isle or sector 5 scan' bogus messages...and then when leaving store the whole 'can I see a receipt humiliation....well I haven't shown them a receipt for years, stopped doing it years ago once I realized you don't have to....and I practically beg them to 'detain' me, call the Police, so that I can retire with a nice lawsuit.
But still, just knowing ahead of time you gotta go through all that just to buy a few items can be stressful and wear you out.
As you age, you begin to realize if you're a certain color, the world will never give you that respect you always thought you'd get when older and proven self....most just won't ever give you that respect, most just don't know how....it's not in them to.
Also I need groceries, which is so very expensive now days, even filling up small green or red hand held basket can run around $50.00 + in groceries, by the time you buy some fruit, milk, vegetables, some canned goods, this, that, maybe some meat, you're already at $60 bucks, in little green basket.
But proper food and nutrition is health, so what are you going to do?
If want to stay healthy, have enough energy for work, you have to eat, and eat right.
Other than other smalll tasks around my place, that will be my day, cause come tomorrow evening, it's on again, work that is, long hard and brutal, and in fact will be working 4 overnights going forward, and off 3, but by the time off, those 3 days off feel more like 2 days off cause so brutalized.
Physically the job not that brutal, rather it's the over night hours that makes it feel that way.
But will be earning over a $1000.00 a week through Holiday period, I could use the money for sure, but can body handle it?
Money vs health.
So for next few months, my presence on here may be a bit lighter than normal do to work schedule.
But with money saved, if survive this period, maybe I can finally move or get used RV, or buy some land and start planning for what's left of my future, which I don't want to evolve around a job.
I need to pay cash for some things, be it land or be it a RV, where rent isn't a problem going forward, cause that's where most people dump all their money, and rent don't care how old or tired or even sick you are.
Time to get on with the day...and screw corona.
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